tonight i took myself on a date. after work i went to an adorable coffee shop called the paper chase for a dinner consisting of a curried vegetable burger with couscous salad. i have no problems with eating by myself in a restaurant. actually, i do it far more often than i probably should since i am lazy and don't particularly enjoy cooking. however, after dinner i also took myself to a movie.
the oxford had a one night showing of raiders of the lost ark at 7:00. i love that movie, as i love indiana jones (i suppose i could say i had a date with young harrison). i even love the historical and biblical references, even though they are so often incorrect. as it is a thursday evening and most people i know had their meeting, i went alone.
it was surprisingly strange.
i'm used to doing things alone and it rarely concerns me. why is it that going to a movie, where you sit in a dark theatre, facing forward, not interacting with any of the people you go with, feels like it is supposed to be a social activity? i felt conspicuous all evening.
and it didn't help that i also won the door prize. i think they picked my ticket on purpose to draw more attention to me.
'look eveyone! this girl came to the movies alone! let's all point and laugh!'
i don't really think that. i know the majority people are too self absorbed to bother noticing who else is even in the same room as them. including myself, since i obviously spent the night fretting about being there sin amigos. it was just such an odd experience. i felt i needed to share it.
Thursday, February 28
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did you scream and jump for joy when you won?
no! that was the saddest part! i was too alone and self conscious about it to enjoy the win. thankfully i was sitting right at the front so i didn't even have to get up. i just said quietly, 'um, that's me.' it was so disappointing!
opposite day- andrew bird
i went to a movie alone the nite before you. and then went to taste buds.
so i think i can understand where your coming from. at least you wernt the one that kept muttering to herself about the movie, and jumping with excitment when something thrillerish happend. vantage point, is a pretty good movie.
i was told by a therapist once that its completley healthy to go to movies by yourself.
and i like going to a place and eating and watching people while i "read".
sometimes you dont want to be around people, but you dont want to be alone in your room either, so its good to just go somewhere theres people, but not have to interact with them.
im learning that more and more latley.
we are so cool. ;)
ya i've been thinking the problem wasn't that i went to a movie alone, it's that i didn't really want to. i wanted to see the movie but it was the kind of show that would have been more fun with someone else. but i just didn't have anyone to go with since it was a meeting night for most people. usually when i do things alone it's because i genuinely want to. just like you say, whit, you don't want to isolate completely, but you don't want to interact either. so you go alone to a place with lots of people. somehow it's soothing.
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