today at work weldon said 'happiness is finding what you're looking for.' i thought that was rather profound. he was talking about a lost cheque but it got me wondering what i'm looking for.
re-reading that paragraph, i don't think i'm making myself very clear.
i just finished 'feynman's rainbow' which is the autobiographical story of two physicists in the 70s. the writer was young and unsure which direction to take and he was inspired by an older, terminally ill professor. the gist of the story was that we should chase our own rainbow. if we chase someone else's rainbow we have the struggle without being able to appreciate the beauty of what we're pursuing. for example, the author was caught up in the rat race just like everyone else - chasing money and prestige, because these were the things he thought he was supposed to be after. but his conversations with feynman taught him to find what makes him happy and pursue that.
i've always wanted, and tried, to live this way. i've been very determined not to be distracted by what other people think i should be doing. but instead i've become distracted by what i think i should be doing. but i don't think it is necessarily what i should be doing.
o good gracious. what annoying navel gazing. ignore me. i think i'm just upset because i'm 0 for 9 at tim's roll up the rim.
i should end this since my room mates are mocking me. i think they are genuinely emabarassed that i am 'blogging' in their presence. they're telling me that it should not be done in public. in fact, they would rather that i not say the word blog ever. it's amusing when people are ashamed of you.
4 comments:
I enjoy your musings. (if you call it your LogBook, the idealists might make fun less, heh). Happiness in addition to the Jah. Others. You, I reckon is putting yourself in the state of mind to Be Happy, like by viewing kind-of-sad experiences as Research Projects, or conversations as Journalist attempts. putting the unpleasant in a different box, tagged, "PERCEPTION ADjust."
to me, happiness is drinking a chai from Oso Negro and listening to the crazy lady at the condiment counter sing her little heart out.
im an 'idealist' and i dont agree with either.
but hey ive always lived my life trying to be not the orphan, then the minni erin. so how original am i?
our assembly was awesome there was a couple of points i liked, one that those that are in the truth but dont practice it, we like to call them half wits.
second that we are not original, even the person we look to that we think is original has taken those characteristics from some other person, we follow too much of what we think we should be doing. ive leaned more towards i should be doing this, rather than people think i should be doing this.
i was listening to CFUR today, im pretty sure there all high on air, cuz half of them mumble and are hippies. they sing to the songs being played and chant. makes me think of folk fest. but ya my point. was.... hmm what was it?
well i think brother fergusons point was that we arent originals theres not a person on the earth that hasnt absorbed one of their qualities from another person. true, but at the same time that makes me want to not be like other ppl.
we are all lumps of clay.
i get what your saying, but i dont know how to make you feel better about it. i cant make myself feel better.
dont over think it?
i think charles schwartz, the peanuts columnist wrote a whole book about happiness. it was targetted at 4 year olds, so it not a long book but its worth the read. just another man's opinion of happiness. it was called happiness is a warm hug or something equally cheesy. if i wrote a book today it would be entitled 'happiness is a regular blog from erin munn'. it makes for a few minutes of enjoyable reading when i remember to check it out. angela
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